I am so, so tired recently.
It is an effort to get out of bed; to dress; to brush my teeth.
I don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything… All I want to do is sleep.
But why? Why am I feeling like this?
It’s because I am exhausted. I have reached my limits, ran over them with a monster truck and crushed them. I cannot concentrate or do much because, quite simply, I am beyond the point of functioning.
You may have noticed my lack of blog posts of recent, and that is simply due to this immense tiredness.
Thing is, when I reach this level of exhaustion I feel mentally exhausted too. I can’t think clearly, all I want to do is go to bed. I don’t want to eat, and typically this is when the food thoughts come back loud and strong.
Every little thing seems to take on huge importance. Every little thing I do wrong is remembered, yet the good forgotten like a breeze. If only I could have a more balanced view of life.
I don’t know what to write.. What do you all want to read about? More about me/ my experiences, Christmas meal plans or advice, tips and therapy help? Please do comment and let me know, I really cannot think straight and thus have no idea what to write.
I like writing though because I find myself actually listening to how I feel, but in a controlled and closed way, that when I’ve had enough of I can just walk away from, the thoughts left alone on my computer.
Anyway, I am profusely sorry for this ramble and my lack of posts. I am alive and I am eating (probably too much) so it could be worse.
Thanks for reading.